The Way You Make Me Feel

My birth month's almost over and so far it has been awesome. I want to say I couldn't ask for more, but the truth is, since I'm very happy and positive, all I want is to improve on all the things that I have and have been doing in my life. 

I'm not saying that I'm free from life issues, I'm not. I'm just choosing battles carefully, I guess. I have other things that I can focus my energy on- thank you!

I want to do the "Currently" stuff that I have been doing in my blog just so I can  update and sort out my feelings. It feels great to kind of express it into writing and I get to actually think deeply (deeply?lol) to ponder how things are. So let's see...

CURRENTLY

Reading
Emails.. well, spam emails LOL! I have a new role in the company and I believe the general email is now connected to my email, so I have been getting spam.

Writing 
I've paused on responding to some emails and now I'm starting to write my blog.

Listening 
To Twerk It Like Miley or whatever the title is. My agents like it so I downloaded it LOL


Thinking
Right now, I am thinking about a friend of mine who came from a really tough break up. It's hard to wake up one day realizing all the lies that your partner have been telling you. It's hard to accept that you've been lied to. Considering that you only wanted what is best for that person. It sucks to realize that you have different intentions. I hope I could wash away all her pain and I really hate it every time she mentions her past relationships with girls that hurt her. 

I am also thinking about my "Beshie", I introduced her yesterday to one of my closest friends from Abu Dhabi. He's Filipino, but we met in Abu Dhabi. It was a bit accidental because we just wanted to meet up and since I will be with someone, he asked me to bring a friend so he wouldn't be out of place. I thought about tagging my beshie along, since she's single and then I started thinking that they can actually be paired. They are both single and very good looking. So, I thought to myself, why not? Right? Well, I hope they click and find forever in each other.

Smelling
Nothing much, office air condition I guess?

Wishing
Whoa! First thing that popped out my mind is very private, sensitive and sort of nakakahiya (LOL)... So let me rephrase the sentences my brain is producing right now so I don't embarrass myself hahaha!!!

I just wish that this wouldn't end. I mean I know that things doesn't always stay permanent but I wish that we are headed to something awesome in our lives- love-life, career and endeavors.

Hoping
That the Duterte Administration will make a difference in the country. I am not trying to change the topic but every time I open my FB, I always see Duterte stuff and all I can do is hope and pray.

Wearing 
my Brown and Cream uniform. No pink uniform today LOL! I don't think I'll ever get to wear that uniform because it's too short now.

Loving
How things have improved in another aspect in my life. I'm just so thankful and I'm loving every bit of it.

Wanting
To start the new thing my friends and I want to start. I don't want to preempt it. So, let's just wait until everything is final.

Needing
Some new shoes and clothes. LOL! Hmm.. having thought of it in a more serious way, I realized that I need more time. It has been crazy these past few days, a lot have been going on and at one point I thought to myself that 24 hours in a day isn't really enough. There's so much that I want to do with my life that I want more hours in a day. LOL! I know it's funny (and crazy) but it makes a lot of sense for me. There's nothing I can do about it though, I will find a way to make things work, of course!

Feeling
Lucky and really Loved ♥
..and because of that, I feel very thankful too :)



One thing I really like about writing the "Currently" stuff is that I realize a lot of things as I end it. It's true that when you let go of things that hurt you, things that you cannot do anything about, you just need to accept it and that's when you can move on with life happily, very lightly but happy and carefree. I have never thought that I could be in this [happy] state. My life isn't perfect, believe me it's not. But I am appreciative of what I have and it makes me really happy. I have been in the deepest, darkest part of life and I thought that there was no getting out of it but I made it. Thank you Lord ^_^

Birthday Celebration 2016

My birthday celebration this year was a little complicated but still a lot of fun. It didn't start the way I wanted it to- my mama as usual... Thanks to Kai it didn't last that long. She video called me in FB and offered to show me her tits to stop me from crying. I laughed out loud instantly, she didn't need to show them to me (gross!). LOL!

At lunch, I went to Vikings and ate like a queen. I was showered with delicious food plate after plate (thank you po). Oh boy! Who would say no to the grasya, owmiged! After the feast, I couldn't even move. The draft beer contributed a lot to my about to be upset tummy. God, I couldn't burp. I needed to go around the buffet tables to feel better. I was mostly scared of puking in the resto, but I survived it! Yaaay! Will I do it again? YES :D

After lunch, we played bowling (to get rid of all the food we devoured at Vikings). At first I was beginning to feel like a pro bowler and then sucked at it a few minutes after, LOL! My partner was really good, he had some strikes and some spare but poor me almost didn't hit some pins in most of my turns. We lost because of me, but it was my birthday, so everyone was a good sport HAHA!

I bought roasted chickens and a lot of pancit canton for dinner. We ate at our house, where people was awkwardly annoying. My family is so conventional and didn't want to think outside the box. They were probably upset that I went out. I think it's just selfish. It was my birthday and I deserved to have fun. They always think that I'm putting my kids aside and I'm like- WHY THE F WOULD I??? They were okay when I bought food and then we (cha, kai and I) set up a little bonfire and spent some time with the kids having smores. The kids enjoyed it. I don't understand why they need to show that attitude instead of just being happy for me? Well, my rant against them will be in a different blog, I guess. 

Despite all their annoying-judging faces, I had fun. I was able to have fun with special people in my life who was happy to make me happy and, of course, my kids. 

So cheers to life at #30!