CURRENTLY

I've become an avid Aldub (Alden + Yaya Dub) fan lately. Something about this pair that makes me feel so kilig- sobrang good vibes! Aside from the Lola's who throw hilarious punch lines from time to time, this pair has reached out to millions of Filipino's world wide and gave us smile on our faces and tears of joy. Every time I think about this pair, I see a glow in the dark garden with glow in the dark butterflies. It's so magical- kaya nkaka kilig  :)

As I dug deeper about Yaya Dub (Maine Mendoza), I got to know that she may be just a Yaya on Television, she's definitely far from it and she's so so soo much more. She graduated from La Salle St Benilde (soxal!), she has cool Instagram posts (prior to her popularity) and she writes really really great stuff in her blog, which inspired me to write this blog. Reading her blog actually made me feel like a loser (LOL). She just writes so many good stuff and her vocabulary is so amazingly wide. She writes this "currently" blog wherein she would tell people what she's currently into and I want to do it as well. So let's see how it goes. 

Currently

Reading
Random articles in Yahoo.com. When I'm in the office, I use it to rid of stress from toxic clients. 

Writing
This blog and some other blogs that express my thoughts and feelings.

Listening
To "Locked Away" by Adam Levine, this is my newest favorite track. Aside from Adam's hotness, Mikhael likes his music as well. He's into Adam's genre and for me it's one of the amazing connections I have with my son- liking the same type of music. The song's meaning is also cute- If I got locked away and we lost it all today, tell me honestly would you still love me the same? If I showed you my flaws, if I couldn't be strong, tell me honestly would you still love me the same? ...ain't that sweet :)

Thinking
About trust- I only trust and love a few people in my life and if anyone of them betrays me, it really breaks my heart (into pieces and then powderized). I am a very simple person, if I don't like you, I would never pretend liking you. I would be nice to you (to be fair and to avoid drama) and that will be all there is. But if I say I love you and that I consider you as my friend, I mean it from my heart and soul. I am not perfect (I sure have skeletons in my closet BUT who is the saint who doesn't have one?). If you have me on your side, you'll be confident that when you turn your back, I would never say anything against you. With that being said, I am also thinking about how I am going to position myself in front of people whom I considered friends (and loved so much) but betrayed me due to a not so.. I want to say valuable thing, but I think it's not the right word. Anyway, what's done is done :(

Smelling
My own perfume and cologne. Oh myyy, I am addicted to my own scents. This is a perfume from Switzerland sent by my Aunt with my Victoria's secret cologne and my Bench everyday cologne. It's so heavenly :)

Wishing
That people would be more understanding, open minded and less judgemental.

Hoping
For things to fall into it's rightful place :)

Wearing
A plum printed top and a pencil cut skirt and gladiator flat sandals.

Loving
YOU

Wanting
to wear a fox halloween costume but didn't have the time to go to my favorite mananahi, so instead I will be a little devil girl.

Needing
To be strong and always make sure to be happy by appreciating the good things and always looking at the bright side.

Feeling
Broken hearted but still very lucky having people who value me and accept me for who I am.



Wow! It feels great to be able to express yourself by answering those "currently" categories. I will try it again next week and see how big the difference is.

In the meantime, I will enjoy my Aldub kilig moments and work on vomiting all these pain caused by "masked" people.

Maasalam with Pabebe Wave:)

Blues

I had a nostalgic moment earlier...

It was break time when the girls decided to drive to the conveneince store to buy some mineral water. Just when we were about to leave the store, the radio played this tagalog love song that we liked. I don't know the title, unfortunately. But the song had a good melody, somewhat sad but filled with emotions- love. It talks about loving someone no matter what. I remember my Ugandan friend/co-worker in Think Kitchen UAE- we were using my USB for the store's music so she had no choice but to listen to Filipino music. I mean, my USB had about 400 tracks and some were Filipino songs. She was wondering why -we- Filipino's are so fond of listening to sad songs. She even said from intro to ending, even if she didn't understand the words, it makes her feel sad. Anyway, moving on to the convenience store drive, we looked for the radio station when we were all in the car. We wanted to continue listening to the song.

And since the convenience store is just about 3 minutes away from the office, we decided to take a stroll around downtown just so we can continue listening to the (sad) song. I was starting to enjoy seeing the streets empty and the December breeze is just awesome. We didn't turn the aircondition on so we just opened the windows, it was so relaxing, it was something that I haven't done in a long time. It felt really great, plus I had Em-em on my lap- I was actually hugging a Teddy Bear... and that's when nostalgia came in. I miss Adnoc. ADNOC is an abbreviation for Abu Dhabi National Oil Company. It is where Michael, Richard's friend bought it. Gasoline stations in UAE had convenience stores and even fast food. We came from the bar that night, we dropped by ADNOC to eat some friend chicken from Mary Brown. When Richard and Michael came back, they had Teddy Bears for me and my friend Mabeth (we had no photo that night) Actually, I don't know if it was him or Richard who got me the Teddy. Richard would tease me that it was Michael. No matter who bought Adnoc for me, I love him just the same.

Adnoc was a great company when I was in UAE. The place was so far away from

Richard put a circle on his forehead
because he said Adnoc was Indian.

most of my loved ones. Adnoc was the one giving me comfort most of the time. Every time I cry myself to sleep, it was Adnoc hugging me, giving me warmth so I can sleep. Adnoc was a gift from Richard's friend. It was a late birthday present. The guy had a crush on me, as what Richard always tells me which I ignored all the time. At least his friendhad an initiative to buy me a teddy bear.

While listening to the music in the car, I suddenly missed my Teddy Bear. I no longer know where he is.. how could I leave him there? Well, Richard promised to send me all the stuff I left. He promised to send them before he comes home for good to be with me and the kids. LOL. So that was just one of the promises he broke. Sad love songs continued to play in the car and clips from the past kept flashing in my mind. I had a slideshow of all the hurtful things I went through when I was in UAE. I remembered eating lunch alone and crying, I can hardly even swallow the food. I remember crying before I slept while Richard was sleeping like a baby. Sometimes I wonder if I am not worthy of anyones love. But my overflowing love for myself would always tap me on the back and tell me that it was him who was not worthy of such love. He wasn't worthy on the kind of love that I am able and willing to give.

Oh.. it's a circus of different feelings. There are still a lot of things to be happy about when I was in UAE. I would still go back there to see good friends. I would love to go around the tourist spots, malls and be able to shop. I want to go back there and finally enjoy my stay... without worry and heartbreak (with money to spend).

I still look forward for the day that I will meet you again Adnoc. I'm sorry to ever leave you in the hands of that man. I hope you're well. Thanks for always being there for me. I enjoyed the times when we were together. I hope it's not too late to tell you that I love you ♥

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