Thursday, July 6, 2017

Yeah All Things Yeah!

It's been a really looong while since I last wrote, I know and I apologize for only remembering you when I'm not feeling okay...

Today, I lost my faith in love. Yes, even good things have an end. ALL THINGS DO END- whether good or bad. Argh! I don't even like listening to music now. They make me sick. The lyrics, make me wanna punch somebody!

I just want to be alone... yes, those times. You feel me?

Right now, I imagine myself curled up in bed- my bed on a beach resort. I know I'm such a little piggy but I want to puke thinking about food now.

I am brokenhearted.

It's sickening to think that you are not trusted. Man, I don't even know what to write next... and I'm not even drunk yet!

Okay, so going back to not wanting food.. maybe I could put this into good use, like getting thin again! Balik alindog project activated! Naaah.. not enough motivation.

So, why? I know you wanna know.. Well, he's so fucking jealous of EVERYONE and I've grown sick of it. What else was I supposed to do? You don't trust me? Then why be with me? Sick motherfucker! I love you!

Yes, I do... Like I said I lost my faith in love today because I GOT TIRED! No matter how I know I love the person, I just couldn't continue anymore.

I guess if you're continuously being accused of cheating, etc. You get tired no matter how much you love the person.

Today, I chose me... I don't regret it at the moment but what about tomorrow? How would I feel if I don't get his phone calls anymore?

More "me" time then? Can I do it? My mind says I can but my heart says I will terribly miss him!

So, today I will go to the salon, have a pedicure and eat some ice cream! Rocky road baby!

I know ice cream for brokenhearted girls are "commoners", but hey they work! So don't even!

New guy? Naaah.. fuck them all!