I have written a thousand drafts saying sorry for not being able to cope up, for not being able to write about updates and they always just end up in the drafts. By the time that I've freed up my desk, I just couldn't relate to it anymore.
So, I am now writing a very short sorry message for myself for not being able to write how awesome things have been in the past few months. I don't know if anyone ever gets to read my blogs but I am apologizing to myself as I am writing things in my own entertainment and if you are entertained as well and is following my blog for whatever purpose (lol), OH my! Thank you and I guess I'm sorry too.
Like I mentioned, things were so awesome towards the end of 2016 and in the beginning of 2017. Self acceptance and knowing what you want and embracing what you are and where you stand definitely creates so much difference. I am proud to have overcome all those challenges. My heart is overwhelmed with so much genuine kindness and love to spread out to everyone.
I have not been able to write because juggling 2 different types of work and tasks, being a mother and so much more is such a great thing to be busy about. Maybe back then I had a hard time expressing myself and maybe I was mostly confused of how I feel about things. Thankfully, before my 2016 ended, I was able to just sip some soda and let things slide. My biggest inspiration are my boys. They keep me going, they are my joy and my life. Just sitting with them on the couch watching American Ninja Warrior or whatever is all it takes to take stress away...and of course, you, who tirelessly tries to understand every single craziness within me.
I was thinking about you earlier. It's kind of funny how I think about you and miss you when we're not together and how irritated I am (sometimes) when you're with me. LOL! Sometimes I murmur and tell myself, how could I be with this annoying person. But then I end up realizing that this annoying person is the one who saves me when things aren't really going well. I do appreciate all your efforts although sometimes the stubborn girl in me cringes every time you try to help me and dissect things. Please understand that I am an independent person who's used to fixing things on my own. BUT then again, I appreciate all your efforts to take care of me. No matter how hard it could get sometimes. Thank you for accepting me for the kind of person that I am. Your "one sided" love is just the best! LOL! Whatever we have, we are happy about it and there ain't no need to justify and correct other people's opinion.
The beginning of 2017 was awesome for me and my family! I may not always talk about my family but for me they're the best. Just like other families, we fight over tone of voice, etc. but we love each other unconditionally and we will always stick to each other no matter how provoking each of us can get. I am really thankful to God almighty for always being there for us. I lift everything up to you my Lord and my God.. I know (faithfully) all will be well.
